It has been a while since I last wrote, things have been pretty good, no we definitely have not been grain-free like I wanted, but at least I have avoided gluten even when it was extremely difficult. I do want to cut down on the amount of corn I eat. It seems like it has been a substitute. But overall I am doing pretty good. I am trying to eat as many nourishing foods as I can but I am not stressing about it because like I've said before the stress negates some of the positives from eating well.
As per a nutritionist friend it is confirmed that I do have a damaged mucosa.
If you'd like to test it yourself try this: after a meal take 4-6 tablets of 500 mg Betaine HCL and see if it causes burning within a few minutes, if it does you have damaged mucosa and/or leaky gut. Healthy people will not feel burning from this amount of acid. If you do feel burning DO NOT take HCL until the mucosa is repaired. And suspect food antigens and gut pathogens.
So he has me taking l-glutamine about 5 grams a day in between meals, plus a support mucosa product which has: licorice root extract, slippery elm bark, milk thistle, MSM, bromelain (an enzyme found in pineapple), N-Acetyl-D-Glucosamine, hawthorne berry extract, siberian ginseng, quercetin, turmeric, and gamma oryzanol. He also wanted me to take plant-based enzymes with every cooked meal since with damaged villi it is harder to break down food. He recommended Enzymedica, I am planning on getting the digest gold in hopes it helps me deal with carbohydrates better, like lactose. He also said that zinc l-carnosine is very helpful for stomach issues, mastic gum can also be very healing. So there is light at the end of the tunnel for those who find it is too difficult to go on the GAPS diet, no I don't think taking some supplements will do magic, but I think with a damaged gut you need to support digestion as best as you can. I am still doing lots of chicken soup for the gelatin in the broth, but I'm not so sure that in and of itself will do wonders either, I have had good broths for over a year and this is when all my problems began happening, but I was also eating a lot of gluten! I think I just need to give my body time to heal.
Since I've made confessions about my sugar addiction I just want to say that sugar in and of itself is not evil! It is the body's preferred fuel source! The brain uses huge amounts of glucose. I think it is at the point that you are consuming so much that it displaces nutrients and taxes the immune system (which I think is because of the combination of gluten and sugar-think cookies). And maybe the amount I have been eating really is taxing my body and preventing me from healing, but I don't think at this point in my life I can go low-carb, high fat. I'm sorry if it sounds like I am giving excuses, but there are people who need to eat guilt-free and without abandon to heal from trying to be a healthy eating perfectionist.
Aside from the nutrition stuff, Ryan and I have decided we want to have another baby! We are hoping to try this month! I have no idea why I have such a strong desire for another child, but ever since April when I thought I might be pregnant I have wanted another child. But just yesterday when Josiah was acting like a wild animal (I gave him skittles- very bad idea) I thought why in the world do I want another?! But for some reason I feel like the next one will be easier and since I kinda know what I need to be eating to have a healthy pregnancy and to give the baby the highest amount of nutrients I feel the baby will be less fussy and more easy going, but who knows I just want to know what its like to have a laid back child. And even if he/she has some health problems despite everything we will have done I will still feel blessed. Children are a joy no matter what challenges they bring! And if all goes as planned we will try for another homebirth, which is really exciting. Last time I probably could have been much better prepared and I think I will be this time. We are timing this so that if I become pregnant in the next couple weeks the baby will be born before the whirlwind of finding a house and moving next spring. If not this month I may just wait a few more so that I'm not giving birth around the time we will move. I want this to be planned! Last pregnancy was a shock to our marriage and life and this time I want it to be joyful. That is all for now, will give an update if indeed I become pregnant!